"Keep looking ahead." they keep telling me,
When i just want them to leave me be.

My mind is erratic and confused,
While everyone, in my misery, is amused.

Why is this? I ask myself once more.
What pleasure do they get out of it? what for?

Why does everyone seem to love me in pain?
What did i do to deserve such a terrible gain?

I just keep falling through the same black hole,
Trying to get back up, but never reaching my goal.

I'm so done with trying to make sense,
So tired of not knowing, of being so tense.

All I want is for this struggle to go away,
But the more I try to rid it, the Stronger it seems to stay,

And the more I give in to the darkness,
The less pain i feel, and i start to become defenseless.

I've shed enough tears to last forever,
I've bled too much at every failed endeavor,

I've felt enough pain for a thousand people,
And i still don't feel safe under a church steeple.

Not many people seem to understand or care,
And losing the one's closest to me, i couldn't bear.

What is there, exactly, that is worth living for?
My pain is radiating out through my core,

It threatens to kill me slowly and painfully
Doesn't sound that bad, i want to let it do so, willingly.

Go ahead, keep telling me I'm wrong,
But to me, you'll be just another amongst the throng.

There isn't a wrong way, there isn't a right,
It's just a system to cause you fright.

So, if you will excuse me, I'll be on my way.
I truly do not want to stay another day.

Miss me or hate me if you wish,
But I want to be as free as a wild fish.

No one can stop me, I'll just pull away.
All i can say is I'm sorry i won't stay.

You cannot keep me forever you know.
for me, for you, please, learn to let me go?