Leave Me

I scream for you to just leave me, We could never make this relationship be, Years of abuse, cheating, and lies, A few courageous and well meaning goodbyes, I hold my heart in my hand, Wondering if I would be strong enough to take my stand, I had loved you more than words can express, But years had gone by and I loved you less and less, I decided in my mind I had to let you go, However, I wasn't sure, I didn't know, I was scared to let us end, I wanted to believe the broken pieces we could mend, In the moment of my final heart break, you ask me to leave, You hadn't even given me time to grieve, I tell you to ask me to leave forever, Tell me you don't want us together, I force you to tell me what I want to hear, I wasn't focused or clear, We couldn't do this anymore, Watch each other go out that door, I felt guilty I had done that to you, But, my love, you had already went to someone new, Numerous times my heart would shatter, You would ask the question, did you matter, You do matter so fly away, There is nothing left for us to say.