Over-reacting? Selfish and dramatic?

Not at all when you think of that collects dust in my mental attic

A brain so full of hurt, heartache, and trauma

In doing this now, I can stop the drama

The flame I speak of so very often

Led me in the dark to my coffin

Burned out now and cold

Wick withered, frayed and old

So many years that candle fought the winds of time

Withstanding so much abuse, many other forms of crime

Lovelessly hopeless now I stand

I can only pray that you’ll understand

I pray you will find peace

And in my going, my memory in you, will cease

All pictures, cards, letters and any other trace

Anything resembling me you will readily erase

I now raise the white flag in sign of my defeat

For the hole in my heart, belly, and mind will never be complete

I reached out, I grasped for something

Dangling over the edge, there was nothing

I did the best I could

I hung on so much longer than so many would

Some called me stubborn, I preferred Misunderstood

When asked how I was I always said fine or good

The truth now be told

If my life were a deck of cards I would unhesitantly fold

The losses I suffered my numbness covered

Until at night alone, my pain all around me hovered

My screams smothered by my pillow

My aura resembling that of a weeping willow

They say “better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all”

But they left out the part about how to stay strong and how to stand tall”

I have had open eyes during my life, nothing other than a 25 years fall

I shut them tight now as I am ready to smash into wall

The structure that seperates us from either heaven or hell

Until we face our judgement, left or right, only time will tell

Heart dissolving in the acid like substance called grief

In the this letter I want to say I am hoping to find my much needed relief.

Empty tears streak my face I will not lie

Its not easy to say, but I dare say it anyway….goodbye.