breathe in breathe out breathe in breathe out
I hear my heart beat won't it stop?
It's sounds funny can you hear the shards
The sound of it breaking my poor glass heart
I touch my chest it feels so cold
maybe.... it was ice

That would exaplain why I couldn't cry
maybe I've grown so cold my tears froze
I traced my scars along my skin
I remembered the pain again and again
I don't want this anymore...

Is it worth it not to feel I know the wounds heal
but the scars are forever and the memory haunts me
I still hear the shouting and feel the way I fell to the floor
I held my gut and clutched my chest
you told me to be a man to grow up
and walked away...

Then you left like always
I was panic you told me to stop crying
I had to stop before you returned so I held myself up
and I grabbed the blade it was just desperation at first
but from then I cut the same spot and the tears would stop 
so when you returned you'd never find a tear

You hurt me long ago played with my mind
made me feel sad and alone scared of what I am
 I hardly could call our house a home
now I'm about to leave and
its not as bad as it use to be
your seeking to warm what grew cold

I threw away the blade
you found the bible and I've lost faith
I felt close to god but people like you tore him away
yet I find myself praying anyway
all you ever wanted is for me to change
but my heart remains the same

You scared me some nights when I couldn't sleep
We talked for hours and nightmares were what you left me
most kids run to there parents for comfort but all I got was read your bible
You told me the world isn't kind to my kind
so it was right since I was unnatural
You filled me with such despair you feed ny fear
Then you left me in your shadows
 maybe alone my heart finally froze over
and shattered...

I had a light once I thought it could set me free
It spoke of forever and promised things to me I've only dreamed
I've been promised before and for once I wanted to beleive
I thought this could be..

But when have I ever been the one to remember 
It's just a matter of time before I am left
so now I lie hear thinking of all the times 
my heart broke and finally I find it froze
with no warmth to be filled lacking all love,memories that hurt and  with friends who forget and prayers that go unanswered
who can blame the heart that's ice cold that no one wishes to hold