I CHEATED

As I stand face to face with you, I dont know what to say

You see at this moment in time I'm speechless because I'm so ashamed

I start off by saying, "baby you're the last person I want to hurt."

"I just want you to know that I feel like dirt"

He says, "Just tell me already, always and forever is the promise we made"

I say,"You might want to reconcider after what I'm about to say"

By this time I can't even look him in the eyes

Because the last thing I want to come out of my mouth is another lie

So I prepare myself to tell him the truth

I guess in this situation it would be a win or lose

I look at him and my eyes fill up with tears

I start shaking as i fill up with fear

I'm so scared to tell him what I've done

Then he will think that I used him for fun

But that's not the case because I love him with all my heart

it was just a moment of confusion that could possibly drive us apart

I finally look him in the eyes and tell him that I cheated

I say that I'm sorry and its trully now what I inteded

He stares at me for a minute or two

I guess he's thinking about what to say or do

He finally says, "I can't believe you would do that to me"

"How stupid was I to think that i trully made you happy"

He says, "From now on what we had is history"

I say, "Please don't say that I really am sorry"

But by then its way to late, he's walking away

I guess I can't expect things to go my way

So I'm forced to look at myself each and everyday

And know that I did someone wrong and their pain will never go away. . .

~Delia