HE DIED SO I COULD LIVE

Why do others feel the need
To tell me what is best for me
"Terri, I know we just met today
I know I can change your sinful ways"

In my life I've often asked
Lord, why me with such turmoiled tasks"
I clearly heard "Why Not You"
My past & my future I quickly reviewed

My Creator,My Teacher,My Father,My Preacher
His unwavering love stands tall 
My Lord,He's always has my back
Never once has HE dropped the ball

I live and learn from past mistakes
At one-time my horror I couldn't escape
This Ungodly fear took my entire space
The evil within had a massive embrace

A prison was built inside of me
I could not set my own soul free
Satan's evil became false pride
One side became whole when the other side died

Every morning I'd wake to fear
At the end of each day I had no cure
Doing anything to stop this fear
My sense of reality was so unclear

My path was paved with glass & gravel
My feet were bare whenever I travelled
An entire life time walking up hill
With a blistered soul & a shattered will

I walked until I had to crawl
I crawled until I had to fall
With a blistered soul & a shattered will
Infected scabs on my bloody heels

My shadow now in front of me
Alone I'd crawl on  bloody knees
I looked away when asking for help
Judgemental screams"you caused this yourself"

I heard the laughter from the nurses
The doctors shunned me with mental curses
You could cut the tension with a knife 
That was the last time I begged for my life

My blistered soul & shattered will
Pushed me up to walk this hill
I lay beneath this beautiful tree
Looked to the sky & shouted "IT'S ME"

" I know all Angels don't get their wings
May I borrow a pair to do a few things"
"When I feel I cannot breathe"
"I need to reach you Dear Lord Oh Please"!

"Lord forget the Angel wings
With You it's possible to do anything"
"The fear of Hell; the gnashing teeth
I finally beat this entity"

"The humble,grateful,loving side
Battled & won my ego' s pride"
"My battle within almost did win
Until I grasped I wasn't pure sin"

"Thank You Dear Lord, for your forgiveness & Grace
Thank You Dear Lord, for taking my place"
"I Thank You so as You never left
You stayed and died for my earthly death"

Inspired By:Our Lord Jesus Christ
Written by: Terri Lynn Waldrop-Vienneau 101
Date Written: 08/24/2014
Kaleidoscope's Ghetto 101



Anyone whom deals with the horrific panic disorder will understand this poem. GOD BLESS YOU