Fear of Reflections

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    Fear of Reflections

    Fear of Reflections.

    I am no amature of suffering.
    Sitting in my room waiting.
    Waiting for him to come home.
    Gravel flies and instantly I shiver.
    A thousand questions stampede my mind.
    Did I forget to do the disthes?
    Did I forget the laundry, vaccuum the floor?
    And if I did, did I do them correctly....

    Framed in the folds of my darkened room
    I hold my breath....
    The car door slams, The front door bursts open
    I pray my father will forget that I am here..

    But countless footsteps fall
    My door explodes...
    He did not forget.

    Crooked nails and calloused hands
    grab me by the hair.
    A silent tear ran down my face.
    I fell to my knees
    I begged him please.
    Please find in me the love that was lost.
    But as I begged and pleaded
    he laughed and chanted posionous cackles.
    His eyes ablaze with indifference.
    "Your a mistake."
    "You never do anything right."
    "You didn't do this."
    "You didn't do that."
    And as I sat in my room later
    Framed in the moonlight.
    I cried at the sight of my reflection
    as the evidence of every bitter struggle
    decorated every portion of my emaciated frame.

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    Onest commented on Fear of Reflections

    05-20-2009

    I'm sorry to read something like this because it is so terrible, I hope you can help others in those situations

    magati commented on Fear of Reflections

    02-16-2009

    sweetaddiction..i cant start putting words to these feeling in me as i read you poem nor put mine place in yours..you have touched a place i only imagin..i feel a tear kncking in my eyes...as my heart ry with sorrow and pain..this is pure poetry of the soul...thanks for you words and feelings...

    KJULEST commented on Fear of Reflections

    02-04-2009

    I know what you have gone through. I was there in my youger years. I always dreaded first my fater comming home. Then my first husband. No matter what was done or what was not done, it was never right. NEVER. I feel your pain. Great words

    xxlheart commented on Fear of Reflections

    01-30-2009

    i agree with the wow comment. this is an incredible poem that needs no tweaking at all. perfect in every sense and yes that means a ten :)

    mightymegan18 commented on Fear of Reflections

    01-22-2009

    that was like a roller coaster of someones life,,,very good!

    If I feel physically as if the top of my head were taken off, I know that is poetry.

    Emily Dickinson (1830-1886) American poet.

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