EMOTIONAL CHAOS
Its hard when people disappoint you
Not noticing how bad you are hurting
You want to stop expecting a change
next time it won't matter
It won't hurt as much
The problem is your stupid heart
It can't stop loving or caring for them
How can you ever be as cold?
Is it possible to turn to stone?
Emotional chaos errupts in your mind
going crazy debating...
should you forgive?
forget?
let go completely?
Can you trust once more,
close your eyes,
pretend to be blind,
let their lies guide you in the dark?
Loose all feelings,
Become deaf,
Become mute,
Or just die?
You ask all the questions
over and over to yourself,
When?
What?
How?
Where?
Why?
You doubt and blame yourself.
Then cry,
yell,
scream,
and curse
but suddenly just smile again
Realizing life goes on
While your stupid heart skips a beat
And whispers try again
Leaving you feeling like a fool ...
©Mary C. Pulido 2013
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