Don't tell me to be happy,
Because I'm not.
Don't tell me I'm sad,
Because I am.
Don't tell me I'm strong,
Because I'm weak.
Don't tell me I'm pretty,
Because I'm not.
Don't tell me to smile,
Because I can't.
Don't tell me to laugh,
Because that's impossible.
Don't tell me not to cry,
Because I can't stop.
Don't tell me to forgive,
Because I don't know how.
Don't tell me to forget,
Because I won't.
Don't tell me to hold on,
Because I'm already falling.
Don't tell me I'm stupid,
Because I already know.
Don't tell me to just keep breathing,
Because I shouldn't.
Don't tell me to let go,
Because I'm stuck.
Don't tell me to move on,
Because I won't.
Don't tell me not to breakdown,
Because I will.
Don't tell me not to disappear,
Because I'm invisible.
Don't tell me not to go,
Because I'm already gone.
Don't tell me not to remember,
Because I already do.
Don't tell me it'll be okay,
Because it won't.
Don't tell me I'll survive,
Because I'm not so sure.
Don't tell me to be happy,
Because I'm not.

Emily Wallace 4-9-09