I'm searching for a way out of the darkness in my mind.
I have tried everything, even being caring and kind.
But nothing I do can get me away
I can feel myself changing day by day.
I am colder to those who care
The darkness seems to be everywhere.
I don't want to be like this.
It is my friends I am starting to miss.
After all this time of being alone
My heart slowly starts to turn to stone.
Why hasn't anyone said anything?
Am I truly nothing?
The darkness in my mind starts to stir
As weird things start to occur.
I now know why I think there is darkness in me
And why all my friends left me to be.
The next day, I go to school
It is everyone I start to fool.
I start to laugh and smile
And hope my friends believe this lie for a while.
But sadly my friens start to see through my mask
"Why don't you care?" is all they ask.
By now my heart is frozen to the core,
I am not capable of compassion anymore.
The darkness wasn't in my head.
It also wasn't anything I said.
It's not a figment of my imagination,
It's a curse from this world's damnation.
I was created because of the darkness that is around,
Now I keep hearing this deafening sound.
But it isn't just a sound; it's a jumble of words telling me what to do,
Also repeating "no one else matters but you."
I soon find myself starting to give in,
Succumbing to the darkness within.
By now I have changed so much,
Not even my 'friends' welcome my touch.
I now leave my old life behind,
And am no longer searching for a way out of the darkness in my mind.