sometimes it's not enough
you feel like it's all too tough
you can't pull through
no one knows what to do

But they're all so ready to judge
like they've been there; like they've been in love
and the moment you reach out
you're worthless without a doubt

I promise, if you'd seen what I've seen
If you had to hold on to a dream
because it got you thorugh the day
it was the only way to get away

Then maybe you'd stop
take a minute, give props
if you felt what i felt
you'd pray for hell

Losing control with no reason
unstable no matter the season
if everyday was a fight
if you thought about death vs life

Could you handle the battle
everyday feeling like chattle
and wait, you're only a child
mommy's temper gets wild

More than painful strikes
how about the words that bite
yea you cry now
but its later that it brings you down

You never escape the words
they repeat in your head and how they still hurt
Just like a new cut
they sting like a wound that's never shut

But thats not the worst
its what you do to yourself when you burst
the way you tear yourself up
the way you feel undeserving of love

And nobody knows
because it never shows
you're an expert at hiding
it all started with silent crying

you had to learn how to hold in emotions
learned how to not make big motions
but feelings don't like to be held in
to be buried and now you begin to wear thin

So every release is intensified
the perpetrator is petrified
but against the anger you're powerless
the sorrow you can no longer oppress

scared to lose control
coz you don't know what's capable
and your soul is so tired
a lifetime of rest is desired

so you take the gun in your hands
with no further plans
you cry and shake
and your own life you take

It's over and done
but for them its just begun
because its not what you take or what they find
it's all the things you've left behind