i think we created God

this entity or being that acts as a shock absorber when things go truly out of wack

then we provide this comfort that...... God understands

when really or minds are just not able to soak up anymore

a God that is in charge of a creation who has gone astray

and as evil looms grotesque uncontrollable

we provide a solace that is supposed to soothe

God is coming back...the end is near

and when children hungry bellies rumble in the confines of the  roach invested one bedroom

a mother at her wits end and desperate to comfort will be heard to say..... God will provide

as she knows they are gonna die...the last chunk of bread was shared between the rats and the eight children earlier in the morning

a young girl with her mind and body polluted by the whorings of her worthless father and numerous cousins

the woman who gave birth to her ...God knows where...but told her in no uncertain terms yesterday to get out of the house

broken walks along muttering what she learned  seemingly eons ago in Sunday school words incomprehensible.....

when thy father and mother forsake you ...God will take you up

what happens when the pain is so great and the sorrow so fixed

that the conjuration  of God is hollow

and the idea that tears are a language God understands

and forgiveness is a concept much too foreign to apply to the sordid situation

making him up does not quite do it anymore

it no longer absorbs the shock

but instead one is left to the starkness of feelings that cant be benumbed

and God cant be created to fix the situation

what then?