As I sit and think of our life
I sit and remember you as my wife
I sadly drift back into those days
I never accepted the parting of our ways
Why did you dessert me
Why did you knowingly hurt me
Did you forget our words of trust
And left me after 11 years for lust
I am mad, sad and disappointed in you
I am hurt, lonely and missing us too
I am hopeful then comes the resentment
I am angry then angrier then I sadly repent
The seas are vast
Our memories as equal from the past
I thought our love was as endless as the stars
As many as my heart now has scars
Thanks for loving me
Thanks for making me sad
Thanks for blinding me
Thanks for making me hurt so bad
I am ill tempered, ill willed, because you left
Now an enemy for the reason you'd expect
How does one deal with love that they never wanted to leave
I can't figure that out but figured that's why people grieve
I was wide open and unprotected
You destoyed me when you defected
I think I am whole but would be flawed if inspected
You carved me up like a skillful surgeon
Cut me in so many pieces and disected
You knew I was on the brink
of going under like a ship who shouldnt sail
But whose body couldn't handle the crashing waves
and ultimately must go under and fail
I don't have the habit of heavy drinking
but have the habit of heavy thinking
How often do I envision you
About as many times as one is blinking
So now I am half the man
who can't walk or even stand
I guess its because I wander without your hand
i get up but on my ass is where I always land
Didn't you feel bad at all
Didn't you flinch as you watched me continually fall
Couldn't you help me from my pathetic crawl
You saw me sleeping in the park
You came by and left with tears as I laid down dirty in the dark
You were the executioner
I was your mark
but still I never attacked
I was a player in a game where the cards were all stacked
If pleasure is measured by smiles
My agony should be measured by my daily deniles
while my road to recovery is bound by infinite miles and miles
Thanks for destroying me
I feel as if these were personal crimes while toying with me
It took its toll but I am finally seeing
Who I loved what something other than a loving being