I've tried to keep busy and work all day
But nothing keeps the pain away
sometimes I drift out to sea
The tears of sorrow keep calling me

I hear their voices calling out
I feel their fears and their doubt
I see the sadness and the pain
The blood it pours like a heavy rain

The cuts are deep, they can not heal
a knife digs in, the skin it peels
The flesh is ripped, and torn away
Do I run, or do I stay

Like hell this sea is burning hot
All my happiness is soon forgot
Misery grows from deep within
Sorrow is my only friend

Now that I'm here, I can not die
Depression is the label for my life
They look at me, they don't understand
Why I don't reach out to take their hand

Judgement and confusion fills their eyes
They are quick to leave, to say good-bye
Why don't they just simply stay
Why don't they sit with me to pray

They think I drifted out to sea
to gain their pity and sympathy
I came here not because I belong
I came to try and help you move on

What good are soul mates, when they are apart
I made a promise, I gave you my heart
I will be with you, through thick and through thin
To love and cherish you until the very end

I understand this grief and pain you can not bare
Though you don't remember me I want to be there
I thought losing our child was more than enough
But I can't lose you too, I can't give up

It wasn't our fault, no ones to blame
But you can't accept that & its drove you insane
So I came here to save you from yourself
Without you I have nothing left

If I have to join you
that is what I'll do
Perhaps you will realize, perhaps you will see
That I'm also drifting, and only you can save me.

06/08/09
Christal Mashburn