the soul of a deeply hurt woman

sitting here reminiscing

wondering how i let this happen

wondering where it ever went wrong

knowing there was a time

a time when we loved each other

now it seems like its all a lie

a lie from your perspective

not knowing what to believe

feeling you wouldn't be shallow

but feeling you could be so heartless

am i going crazy?

do you think so?

would they think so?

do i think so?

how about i hurt you

hurt you much more deeper

turn the knife in deeper

dig in with an ax and cutlass

pull out the knife and watch

watch with satisfaction

as your blood drips from the knife

tic-tic-tic-tic-tic

while i smile

smile with satisfaction

as i watch you

watch you groan with pain

wriggle with discomfort

knowing you're hurting

thinking your ultimate pain

pain level has come

while i'm dissatisfied

dissatisfied cus it's not enough

wanting to impose more pain

thinking a bag of reptiles

would do the trick

watch them bite your wounds

bite it like it's not the last

while i grin

grin mischievously

grinning cus you're getting there

where?

a torture that has no end

a pain that has no cure

a sorrow that has no joy

a happiness that has no glow

a sadness that has no fulfillment

a world that rejects you

an anger that comes from God

a hell that's made for you

a pit you can't crawl out of

a darkness you can't survive

shackles you can't break from

burdens you can't run away from

a freedom with no peace

a mind with no feel

love without passion

hatred without jealousy

sex without satisfaction

pleasure without happiness

fantasy without fairies

coldness wittout warmth

are you there yet?

should i continue?

can you feel it yet?

can you feel my pain?

are you there yet?

at that place where

where there's no come back

at that zone where

where it's painted red

red for everyone to see your pain

red for everyone to see the blood

the blood dripping from your soul

are you there yet?

at that zone where

where it's painted black

black for everyone to see your dungeon

black for everyone to see the darkness

the darkness you can never survive

the darkness you drew yourself into

the darkness where there's no return

should i keep on digging?

digging with my ax and cutlass?

would that be too much discomfort?

does it matter now?

matter what you want?

should your voice be heard?

should i pity you?

should i forgive you?

questions i ask myself

but why should i?

did it matter then?

matter what i wanted?

should you get away with it?

no! no! no! no!

can you see my tears?

dripping down my eyes

just like your blood

dripping down my knife

can you see my soul?

can u see the dagger?

the dagger you hurt me with

can you still see it there?

walking like nothing's happened

smiling like it's happiness

knowing deep down i'm hurting

hurting from the dagger's wound

but knowing that it's wishful thinking

leaving you for God to deal with

knowing He can punish you more

knowing he'ld fight for me

but hey!

if i could, i would

i would do all these things

now look, look

look at me

look into my eyes

look into my soul

this is the soul of a deeply hurt woman.