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MY LIFE STORY

WHEN I WAS 4 YRS. OLD, I GOT RHEUMATIC FEVER, WHICH DAMAGED 2 OF MY HEART VALVES. I HAD TO SPEND 8 MO'S IN TH HOSPITAL.I WAS LIMITED TO THE THINGS I COULD DO,AND HAD TO GO TO SPECIAL SCHOOLS. I FELT LIKE AN OUTSIDER, I FELT LIKE I DIDNT BELONG WITH ALL THESE HANDICAP PEOPLE.EVERY MONTH I HAD TO GET A PENICILLAN SHOT IN MY BUTT, AND STILL TO THIS DAY I CAN FEEL THE PAIN.HEATING PADS HELPED WITH THE SWELLING.

WHEN I WAS 19 STARTED DRINKING AND SMOKING WEED. WHEN I WAS 21 I HAD A SON( WHICH I WASNT SUPPOSE TO GET PREGNANT CUZ OF MY CONDITION)ANYWAYS I WENT THRU IT. WHEN I WAS 25 I HAD MY HEART SURGERY TO REPLACE MY VALVES, WITH METAL. SUSTAINED FROM ANYTHING FOR 3 YEARS. THEN WENT BACK TO SMOKING AND DRINKING AGAIN.(WHAT WAS I THINKING?) WENT IN AND OUT OF RELATIONSHIPS.THEN WHEN I WAS (30)GOT MARRIED TO A YOUNGER MAN(23)WHOM I THOUGHT I WAS IN LOVE WITH.WAS WITH HIM FOR 5YRS, THEN DIVORCED.

THEN MET ANOTHER LOVE WHEN I WAS 37( WHOM I WOULD STILL BE WITH IF THE LORD HAD'NT CALLED HIM HOME.WE WERE TOGETHER 9 YR'S, AND WE HAD ARE UP'S AND DOWN'S, BUT WE WERE CONNECTED SOMEHOW.SOMEWHERE IN THOSE YEARS I STARTED SMOKING CRACK, AND BECAME ADDCTED TO IT. I AM HAPPY TO SAY I AM ALCOHOL AND DRUG FREE FOR 2 YEARS NOW.

WHEN I LOOK BACK ON MY LIFE, I'M SURPRISED I'M NOT DEAD. BUT THERE IS A REASON I'M STILL HERE. I WAS ONE OF THOSE TEENS WHO WAS TOTALLY AGAISNT DRUGS AND ALCOHOL, AND I FELL INTO THE TRAP.

BUT WITH MY OWN WILLPOWER AND THE HELP OF GOD I OVERCAME THIS ADDICTION. AND I DID IT ALL ON MY OWN, AND WITH THE LOVE OF MY FAMILY. I HAVE NEVER BEEN IN TREATMENT. I BELIEVE WE ALL HAVE THE WILLPOWER TO OVERCOME OUR OWN OBSTACLES IN LIFE, BUT THEN THERE ARE SOME OF US WHO NEED THAT LITTLE PUSH.

I NEVER WANT TO GO BACK TO THAT LIFE. I MISS THE LIFE I SHARED WITH CARDELL, AND I AM SO GLAD HE WAS SAVED BEFORE HE PASSED AWAY.BUT I DONT MISS ALL THE MISTAKES WE MADE, AND THE STUPID THINGS WE DID, AND THE PEOPLE WE HURT. JUST REMEMBER THE THINGS YOU DO IN LIFE, NOT ONLY REFLECT ON YOURSELF BUT OTHERS AS WELL.

SOME OF US DO LEARN FROM OUR MISTAKES, AND SOME OF US DO BECOME BETTER PEOPLE FOR IT.AND IF YOU BELIEVE IT OR NOT, WE ALL WERE DESTINED TO LIVE THESE LIVES BEFORE WE WERE BORN.WHY WE WOULD CHOOSE OUR LIVES IS BEYOND ME, BUT THERES A REASON.

MY SON IS NOW 26,MARRIED,AND HAS 4 CHILDREN OF HIS OWN. HE DOES NOT DO DRUGS, AND IF HE DRINKS IT IS VERY RARELY. I'M GLAD HE TURNED OUT THE WAY HE DID, HE IS THE BEST SON IN THE WHOLE WORLD, I WOULD NOT WANT ANY OTHER SON. I AM VERY PROUD OF HIM. AND MY GRANDCHILDREN ARE LITTLE( ANGEL / DEVILS ) BUT I STILL LOVE THEM.

WELL ANYWAYS I HOPE YOU ALL ENJOYED MY LIFE STORY, A BRIEF SUMMARY . IF YOU HAVE ANY COMMENTS, PLEASE SHARE THEM, THANX