Humbly and submissively I stand before you, with my spirit crying out
for help and my heart filled with pain,
I think about the days and nights when I was alone, when there was no sunshine in my life, nothing but rain.
I remember the times when I encountered abuse, physically, mentally and emotionally; not knowing what to do.
Always asking my Heavenly Father, “where is it that you are taking me to”, because I am faithfully going through……

I endured my struggle, stayed faithful and true; then one day my Father said, “Okay my child, this season is done”
I made it through the struggle and strife, my test is now a testimony, and all of my trying times are gone.
But then, after a while, I begin to struggle again, this time with having to be by myself all the time, no companionship at all,
Okay, Father, what now; I vow to myself that my flesh and spirit may get weak and I may stumble, but I will not fall.

Then, a blessing in disguise, my Father answered my prayers again; He blessed me with you, a very compassionate man,
Someone that lifts my spirit; you have taught me how to laugh again, it is like, my wish is your command.
Excited to have you in my life, I began to display my loyalty dedication and goodness, in an effort to please,
Not knowing that there were still some things that were shut up inside of me from my past; now they began to release

Because of my past emotional abuse, I tend to be very defensive, sometimes causing me to say things I don’t mean,
And I’ve been alone for so long until I have to learn how to love and be loved all over, at least that is how it seem.
And it is causing my heart to ache and my emotions to overflow and I just need you to understand and help me through,
Because there definitely is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, and that pot of gold is eternity spent with you.