Numb.
The excuses are wearing thin. I'm running out of them, as I go in circles again and again.
Is it so bad that I'm mentally at ease with you enough to where I'm numb.
Numb enough that I'm depressed and I don't know why.
The past affects everything, it's hard to move away from it, but you have to sometime.
I want to believe we were meant to be, but it's hard when all these second thoughts keep getting put in my head.
I'm in denial, everyday of my life. I've been here so long I can't get out.
I'm unhappy and I live with it everyday without knowing why.
Somethings missing and I don't know what.
So many times I've been told I'm beautiful, intelligent, and stubborn at most.
But in my eyes, I give in to easy, I'm a sucker that knows nothing, and ugly beyond compare.
I'm a cruel being for letting this go on for as long as it has.
I get told I deserve better but I stand by the fact that there is no one better for me.
The doubts I wish I didn't have, the flaws I wish could disappear.
No matter how bad things look I keep trying.
The things I see in myself, and the things others see are completely different.
There are times I wish I could just drop off the face of the planet and there are times I wish I was never born, but life goes on.
Shit happens, but I will continue to be numb, ignorant if you will.
Numbness. It's what keeps me alive everyday.
Should I give in?
Lose the one I love most...
With that thought, I'd rather be ignorantly numb.
Is it so bad that I'm mentally at ease with you enough to where I'm numb.
Numb enough that I'm depressed and I don't know why.
The past affects everything, it's hard to move away from it, but you have to sometime.
I want to believe we were meant to be, but it's hard when all these second thoughts keep getting put in my head.
I'm in denial, everyday of my life. I've been here so long I can't get out.
I'm unhappy and I live with it everyday without knowing why.
Somethings missing and I don't know what.
So many times I've been told I'm beautiful, intelligent, and stubborn at most.
But in my eyes, I give in to easy, I'm a sucker that knows nothing, and ugly beyond compare.
I'm a cruel being for letting this go on for as long as it has.
I get told I deserve better but I stand by the fact that there is no one better for me.
The doubts I wish I didn't have, the flaws I wish could disappear.
No matter how bad things look I keep trying.
The things I see in myself, and the things others see are completely different.
There are times I wish I could just drop off the face of the planet and there are times I wish I was never born, but life goes on.
Shit happens, but I will continue to be numb, ignorant if you will.
Numbness. It's what keeps me alive everyday.
Should I give in?
Lose the one I love most...
With that thought, I'd rather be ignorantly numb.
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