I remember the joy, when I was a little boy..
In a happy home, until I got broke?
I didn't know then the Master's mighty stroke.
I was twenty when mom died at 39..
14 days later dad killed himself with the shotgun that was mine?
He had to reload, the first shell didn't succeed?
My baby little sisters were only 7 and 3 ?
Billy was 10 and Jimmy just 16?
He went to the funeral home and they found him on his knees...
In a praying position, hands folded, oh how he did bleed.
He loved her so much, didn't he new the master's touch? He read his bible so much?
His love for the family impecable, memories of him dancing mom round the kitchen..
Not a Sunday did we miss church but oh how I miss them.
The courts and my 18 year old sister took the kids away?
I fell to the floor and and screamed in agony that day.
I was homeless on the earth, never again with a family like I had at first?
I looked into the heavens to this God in whom I loved,
I wanted revenge and I was after blood!
My high school lover, she married me, but couldn't bare my pain,
I delivered our son,Jake who died and soon she too was gone?
The last straw of my heart broke..it was broke with her stroke?
I looked to the clouds and called out to His holy name!
Every curse word I shouted and my tears poured like rain.
I told this God, this Savior of love, in whom I believed..
To come down off His throne to this earth just for me!
I pleaded and cried and stood still 3 years with this need.
I wasn't moving... He said His blood was for me?
I searched my soul but nothing was left in this world?
Every love I ever knew was gone away, it was hurled?
I was the only one left and I was not enough...
I realized ..there had to be more to life or show me the door?
But I waited and cried and stood three years more,
Telling this God whom I believed..I would not move till He came?
One fine day He did and I shined like Him again!
He truly moved in.... and this is my story !!!
I glowed like the sun light and He was my glory!
He picked up the pieces and all His love was the glue!
I memorized His covenant He made with me... I was 22.
I was in love with Him and His Word now I knew!
After 6 years I married and got a new family... His word was true!
3 children and 14 years later, found my wife at a hotel.
I saw her car as I was driving by... I had no clue?
I knocked on the door, she was naked and some guy too?
The courts gave my babies 9, 10 & 11 to her,
Wednsdays and weekends but she said no at times, it's all like a blurr...
Arresting me three times for nothing that I did?
Durring OJ's trial she said, you wanna see your kids?
The cop she was dating, they beat me.. pulled there guns, taking aim at my life...
I turned my back as fast as I could an said go ahead, shoot you cowards, she's my wife!
They threw me in jail time after time?
A year and half now since I have been with them kids a mine.
There mom never with them either, as she stayed at the hotel?
My heart ws dying and my tears poured like rain.
I lost 50 pounds and my boss and the boys took turns with me while I cried.
In my suit at the new car store, they loved me, at least they tried!
After 10 years together I loved them, they were now loving me back..
I gave them each Father's love... and they all new that !
Each time she'd say come get the kids but cops were hiding to beat me, to take me away.
Then came the crash from a gypsy along side a road, he merged strait into me.
He pulled from off the berm into me, the coroner and all the police said so?
But the judge had an agenda, from the case before mine'..
The same charge and he was guilty, so he gave me his time...
The wrong place the wrong time or God's plan to give me three?
In a state prison, no parole, no children,no justice, just me.
My X kept telling the children next week, daddy we will go see.
Three years later I saw them my kids but didn't recognize they were mine.
My tears cried like rain.. I was broken one more time?
For 8 years now have I've walked, they took my liscense away..
Now I walk everywhere and I walk day after day?
To the laundry, to the job, sometimes to the river just to pray.
In 08 I was homeless, I quit a job to help a friend..
Who decieved me and lied but across the country did I ascend..
The Word says if they ask you, give them your coat too...
So i did and lost but at the shelter some won...and not just a few?
I shared my Jesus with them and they cried and held me in there arms.
As they did when I left prison. 14 men, 4 pastors, and two guards.
They gave a standing ovation, thanking God just for me?
They cried and said there lives had been changed...
And they'll always be thankfull for what God had arranged?
They were blind and lost but now thanks to Christ in me they could see.
And now it is January 2009, my landlord says Mark I can't wait any more?
Your behind a 100 from last month, sorry, but there is the door?
The first will be here soon and you've lost your job?
I am sorry, I love Jesus, just as you do?
But you'll have to go..I need the money... it's true.
I look up into the heavens last night at age 53...
And the battle rages on... but in side I am free..
I can see those stars and I'm so blessed...
For the Lord He cares for me and has put me to the test!
Because my Jesus Loves me! :(