Thank you Lord for the brain I got in my head
I use it to remember
Sometimes, try to make it forget
About stuff that's banned from TV
I seen things you wouldnt believe
My son was also there to witness this gruesome scene
When his father was killed in cold blood
Right in front of him
That's something no child should of ever seen
It's a nightmare come true for me
It's not just a dream
This is my reality..
It's so real even the thought hurts
I feel like my life is cursed
But you have to take life as it comes
You only live once
I just can't forget the love of my life
I'm lonely and I miss the essence of his presence
Just for him to be in the room watching T.V.
Would be enough for me
Like him there is no other
It feels empty in my heart 
                   Like no other feeling I ever felt..........