It killed me to say what I did that night
I could feel my own heart breaking
I thought it’d make things easier, but I was wrong
My life seemed to get exceptionally worse, my thoughts possessed by him
How did I let myself get so consumed?
Something about this boy makes me long for him constantly
When I close my eyes, he’s looking back with those gorgeous brown eyes
When I pull my pillow closer at night, I wish it was him
I touch the empty spot in my bed where he's supposed to be
My fingers long to stroke his hair while he lies beside me
My lips are eager to kiss his ever so gently
I want him to feel the passion that has built up inside of me
My body literally aches for him
I can honestly say that I’ve never felt this before
Despite what you may think, he is not just a boy
I can’t just move on… what’s after perfect?
Call me pathetic and stupid for feeling this way, it makes no difference
I am unashamed of the way I feel
This boy has restored something in me that I had lost
Wanted by all, but deserved by none
He’s the epitome of flawlessness
And he’s everything to me
You know what this means, and so do I
I’m completely in love with this boy