Why do you do this to me babyy? What did I do wrong? All I did was love you with all my heart and I still do. I give you everything and I continue to pay for everything you want food, minutes for your phone, your bad habits, cigarettes, you name it I buy it. Everyone tells me that I am stupid for that....I ignore them. I do it because I love you and you know I would do anything for you. They just don't understand what it is like to be in my situation. I love you babyy so much. We are completely fine when we are together but as soon as you leave me, we fight. I don't understand....you gave me my ring back for Christmas. You saw my face light up with happiness as soon as I unwrapped it. You know how much it means to me. You know that I love you with all my heart. I only want you. I don't want anyone else. I wish you could see that I just want you back in my life. I want to be happy and live the rest of my life with you. Remember when you told me that. You told me i was the BEST you ever had....just like the song. We had so many songs. You are the sweetest guy ever. But for some reason you don't want to be with me right now. It breaks my heart to pieces. I hate this shit. I just want you by my side like you used to be. I don't understand. You get mad when I talk to other guys, you get mad when other guys hit on me, you still want to protect me, you think that i fucked around....when you know i'm not like that. You know I would take a bullet for you. You know how much pain I have been in since my Dad has died. I told you everything. I don't know what I am supposed to do now. I can't be entirely happy unless you are back with me. I mean you make me happy and smile and laugh like no one else can. You still protect me and everything like when we were dating. I spent 7 to 8 months of my life with you and it was the best months of my life. I wish you would just come back to me babyy. Tonight after we took care of our "business" we cuddled like we used to. Maybe it wasn't the way I wanted to but we still did. You were tickling me and touching me like we used to. You were kissing on me and everything. Babyy you mean the world to me. I wish you would just come back. I feel the safest when I am in your arms. Please babyy just come back to me. You know I am waiting for you. I don't want anyone else. My life isn't the same without you and I refuse to move on and give up on you like everyone else has and does in your life. I mean every word that I say. I am madly in love with you and have been since the day we met. That may sound stupid but it's true. Babyy you have the only key to my heart. Please come back James.

4/18/09.