There are things in my life I try to forget
Like the obligations I never met
A father I have failed to be
A son I can only pray to see
I put on a mask to hide the pain
But hiding this will drive me insane
A family I so proudly called mine
Tonight, with another man, will dine
The boy I have been so proud to raise
I have not seen in many days
The woman I wanted to be my wife
Left me again, taking my life
How much I miss my little boy
Being his father gave me so much joy
I miss the kiss from my little man
These thoughts replay again and again
I try to tell myself to just let go
But my heart and soul keep saying no
I wish I could see him every day
I wish so much she decided to stay
Waking up without her still feels strange
All I can do now is try to change
My heart aches now for the things I have missed
I'm sure by now it is quite a list
Today I missed his halloween
His birthday I have still not seen