Stand

Fight

Twisted within my own selfish thoughts I find myself feverish

Unsure of what to do I turn to music and listen

I hear beauty within the voice of others

Inspiration in their words

The tones of their voice combined with the sounds of their instruments create

nostalgia

I remember better days

Today is just not going to be a good day

I can feel it with my every movement

It helps to think about the times I smiled

What caused it?

Was it being alone?

Was it the touch of someone I adored?

Was it the laughter of those around me?

Suddenly my mind begins to fall

A degree of selfishness creates love for your own soul and it seems that degree of selfishness is forbidden amongst those in “committed” relationships

These thoughts encompass the mind in chaos

Depression flows through the body until it reaches my heart

Building up like a clogged artery the walls filled with pain and sadness begin to break

Suddenly something miraculous happens

They walls of my heart become stronger

I breathe again the breath that was once constant, the breath that made me feel alive

The selflessness that made life seem damp and dark is now gone

I raise my head from my tired hands and open my eyes

Feeling the sunshine warm my forehead and the crisp cool air around me I remember what is it to live

I step out of the shadows and look back

There is but a shell of a man in the pass that I will never be again

I am stronger

I am faster

I am bold

I realize

I AM

The mind has been made pure by its author once again and I feel reborn

Let us begin again and make all attempts at life whole and peaceful.