I loved you

Day by day, night by night,
I struggle through an endless fight,

There is no glory, there is no win,
just a raging battle that strives from within.

The battle is in my mind, the battle is within me,
the battle is to live life the way I see if fit to be.

For life’s destiny this is what we are dealt,
it really doesn't matter how we truly felt.

What we make of it is how we progress too,
I guess this was the moment when I met you.

I was at the point of no return, I was tired of the task,
I was so mad at life I ripped off my mask.

At that moment I was venerable, and I could be seen,
this was the moment when you laid your eyes on me.

At first I didn't care I had no interest,
but you persisted with me until you won your conquest.

I had to let it out, it was the only thing I knew,
I had no one to talk to until I met you.

For the first time in my life I tried it I opened up,
It was the greatest night of my life, and I couldn't shut it up.

The saddest thing I have to say is that I was untrue,
Afraid of what you'd ask of me so I lied to you.

Though I acted as Myself, I behaved completely me,
I changed my destiny the moment I met thee.

To escape my past I did everything to forget my horrid shame,
Afraid of what you might think of me I hoped my lie would maintain.

I figured you didn't want me to even get to know,
had I told you the truth you'd run, flee or just go.

But what can the past tell the present cannot claim,
you and I fell in love and for that who is to blame?

We connected, we clicked brought together by a pair of hands,
Tired of what we asked God brought us from different lands.

How is it we could meet at one place or one time?
In a world as big as this was it your wish or was it mine?

Does it truly matter ask yourself this,
when the more you think of me, it me the more you miss.

Do the words I love you carry anymore meaning,
When it was you that became the drug this addict was feeding.

Torn apart yet I have no set course,
and if I were to die today I'd have no remorse.

Because the best woman I met I had a chance to love,
so I feel no regret, yet I ask for one last hug.

But if she could just come back to me I swear this truthfully,
I will love you and be honest now and eternally.