As a baby I fear of falling.....

As a toddler I'm fearless..

As an adolescent woman I struggle with judgment, pimples, lack of acceptance, being out of place...

As a teen age women I struggle with peer pressure, sexual identity, boys, insecurity issues, and the desire to fit in...

As young adult women, I struggle with career possibilities, boys pretending to be men, my self identity, self love and acceptance...

As a sister I struggle with jealousy, fear of abandonment, betrayal, resentment, and pain...

As a friend I struggle with the real commitment of the friendship..

As a woman I struggle with insecurities, lack of real trust in man kind, disappointments, and the desire to be whole...

As a mother I struggle with the fear of failing my children, and not breaking my family cycle......

As I journey through the different phases of life. I as a woman have learned we struggle with life issues to grow and mature. This is a real test that we are in deed living life and not just existing. I have discovered that the "suffering" is our relationship to pain and the way to release this suffering is to become at peace with ones self. Earth has no sorrow, which heaven can not heal.


Written on 12/06/08

Ruth portrum