fingers on my lips
tracing the fading lines of our last kiss
it seems so long ago all warmth has faded
my shoulders shiver in response
to his touch thats a memory so long ago I feel permantly cold
my heart skip a beat when I try to think about his love
and how it made my heart weak
it would pitter patter skip beat
to the tune of his rhythmic beat
but now in defeat it beats skip im hurt beat
eyes swollen from tears unshed
tears of unhappiness on the brink of falling
recalling how easily they shed with the pleasure his love gave me
I look at this man and wonder
what thoughts are in his head
is our relationship dead or is it sort of muted
what does his heart tell him
does it tell him to
love her or let her be
kiss her or set her free
hug her or send her away
shed tears of joy for her or torment her with tears of pain
find the happy rhythm of her heart or
run from the clatter of the broken beat
does his thoughts force him to see
that I'm the only one he needs
his heart, his rib, his more than perfect fit
or are these my dreams of how I wish he felt for me
my own little denial behind the truth that he really doesn't love me
I wish his thoughts formed countless circles around me
kissing me, hugging me, loving me, totally engulfing me
or do I realize through all these love hazed love crazed lies that he no longer loves me
that my lips no longer feel his kisses or his hugs I miss
my heart breaks and my eyes hold back tears in pain
his love is gone