Since 1992 until this day I've decided,
to open up to myself and to God,but to the rest I just hide it
.
Hide What? you might say,Not secrets or lies or things of that decree,
but how I feel as a woman to myself about me.

Never questioning my sincerity,loyalty,integrity or devotion,
smiling all the while to cover up my emotion.

A f**king reck on the inside I mean torn apart,
all because of my kind,weak,stupid loving heart.

They say your body is a temple gaurd it throughout and within,
I must have a welcome sign on mine cause theives manage to get in.

Back then I thought immaturity,the need to be loved was a reason for that phase,
Thinking as time goes on I would see better days.

As time progressed maturity started to set in,
giving my heart another shot to lead me,this time I must win.

Feeling special,hugs and kisses,wined and dined is how it all start,
feeling played,unfaithfulness,sighs and moans,unappreciated "F**k Your Heart"!

Being independent,unselfish,blessed and loving as a person,
to being told "You ain't s**t, You're nothing and having fears of desertion.

Is a f**ked up feeling coming from those you thought loved you and had your back,
or maybe me not giving a f**k,being selfish is an attitude I lack.

My beliefs in what goes around comes around is what keeps me in line,
Karma is a bad b***h,cause she gets you in due time.

Being true to myself and to others is something I always try to be,
but others being true in return never gets back to me.

Others meaning everyone family,friends and lovers that goes without saying,
won't knock my blessing for anyone so I'll just keep praying.

For a better you,better me a better us if it's meant,
and for what's in store for me I know will be God sent.

God takes care of fools and babies and neither one I claim to be,
I've allowed my heart to lead a long time I think it's time it follwed me.