~Day after day, I look for change.
   ~I am fooling myself again.
~Damn fool- no motivation.
  ~Horrible choices, again and again and again.
~What is wrong with my mind? When will this madness end?
~I look to the past, there is no future there
~I search for answers; I can't find them anywhere.
~Follow your heart- that's what is said; use your heart, not your head.
~Where do I start with this broken heart?
~What is left? Why pain?  Always pain.
~I thought I was safe,
  ~no, not this man.

~Right in front of my eyes- there was no disguise.

~And I see beyond all of this- but I will not pay this price.

~Tumbling dice- roll

~Forever is not at home- my forever are not here.

~How many good-byes? Where is my forever hello?

~Tell from his heart.

~I need to stop! Reach the top. Find a way- answers, solutions. Energy and visions.

~Crazy- maybe; seeing the truth; amazing.

~Harden my heart, List of things I've never done.

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