Why the fuck do I deserve this life??

What did I do??

I need answers

I am tired of being stuck in the dark

Soon I will lose control

And I will rid myself from this hell

I must have done something wrong

For him to hurt me so bad

He’s my brother,

He is supposed to protect me from harm not cause it

Same with the rest of my family

I mean don’t they realize that I have needs and feelings to

I guess not because I am the one who gets forgotten about

Being abandoned by my family is one of the worst feelings

Eventually I realized there is no point in showing my feelings

So I bottle them up and everyday they eat away at me

Drawing me closer and closer to ending my horrible life

But something always stops me when I want to end my life

It is the love for my niece and nephews

They are my world, so for their sake I only cut open my wrists

The pain only temporarily makes the hurt go away

But it keeps me from losing control if things keep going the way they are

I will be gone from the world forever

Everyday I think the same thing “why?”