DESPAIR
 
I'm not half the man that once was I
Looking in the mirror, I hate what I see
Wondering what terrible thing I have done
To make even God turn his back on me
 
No peace of mind is to be found this day
I laugh and smile so no one will know
I cry and I'm sad, all alone on the inside
On the outside I put on quite a show
 
Despair and hopelessness has finally won
I find myself in a state of confusion
Was there ever a time when I was happy
Or is that just some wishful illusion
 
No where to go with the rest of my life
As I sit writing a poem for no one to see
Please listen, God, then be just and kind 
And send your Angel of Death after me