Theres so much to live for so why cant I see?? I only see negative instead of positive. I only see depression instead of happiness. I only see fear instead of courage. I only see self pity instead of self worth. I only see disease instead of the good around me. I only see death instead of life. I only feel numb instead of a beating heart. In ly see enemies instead of friends. I only see lies instead of truth.

Why cant I see positive instead of negative? Why cant I see happiness instead of depression? Why cant I see courage instead of fear? Why cant I see self worth instead of self pity? Why cant I see the good around me instead of diseas?? Why cant I see life instead of death?? Why cant I feel a beating heart instead of numb? Why cant I see truth instead of lies. I only show my emotions instead of feeling them...What the hell is wrong with me???