What is a tear or should I say fear

So many hard days and long nights I lay down in my bed and wonder to myself if I should give into the flesh, I have even sometimes ask myself can I allow this to happen to me again to let  the craving of my flesh not asking me but telling me that I need to be held, to be touched or even to have my feet rubbed and my bath water ready for me to lay back in the tub and just let myself relax all over.But my mind tells me that If I listen I will regret it, I will no longer have to wonder if this is a tear or fear because it will be both. I will have the pleasure of it all but the price that I will have to pay will bring me all the tears that I feared for so long.Is this a tear that I am feeling or is it my inner self telling me that it is time to move on before your heart tells you to love and you listen. I believe that we all know that as long as we keep the inner self from getting hurt we can allow ourselves to get back up wash the face and dry away that little tear drops, but what if the heart moves to fast and the inner self has no time to prepare itself then what will happen to us then,will the tears keep coming tell you have nothing but puffed eye's,broken heart and a head and heart ache that you will have no other choice but to say to yourself I knew I should have listen to my heart from the start and pulled back but it will be to late or maybe not if you are still just laying on the bed and that bath water is cold you just might beat it again. I warn you don't think about the tears or fears read a good book and say goodnight.