What I should have said then...

What I should have said then was that I'm really feeling you, stop trying to guess what it is you wanted me to do, I should have stayed true to me and let Ms. Tea Loose on you, should have just told you that I think I'm in love with you. Now I'm sitting here with my shoulda, coulda, wouldas, and you, I really do miss you, should have told you, should be telling you. What I should have said then I'm afraid to say to you, fear of rejection, fear of affection, you looked at me and it was like I was all the world to you, and now, I haven't seen you, cant see you, want you, so desperately missing you, need your arms around me need your voice to calm my spirit, tell me "baby, its okay, Im here" what am I going to do? I need to get this out, need to set these words free, need to tell you, but you're not here...There's only me.