So lost in this world I have created

Questions on things unstated

Not sure if it's fate that really

made it

I am so ready to discuss this change

So ready to discover and compare

my lost to my gains

So incomplete and complete all in the same

I can't make complaints

on things I refuse

to change

But I can realize my future

and the path

that remains

My choices that are to blame

Making sure to understand

My hurt and my pain

Decipher the difference

So I can maintain

Sanity or better yet

A steady way of thinking

so I can reclaim

My life

And my thoughts so untamed

Stuck on staying the same

My future now contained

In what I call

the struggles of

the unnamed

It's my comfort zone

One all of my own

As I try to break the cycle

I realize the clone

I blink twice and think

There's no place like home

I continue to move on

Watching history repeat

and my life slowly retreat

Washing through a cycle

already set on defeat

This is a battle I never wanted

But truly need

To fully feed my demons that have

Grown from this seed

Planted in me so I could see

The things in my life that are ment to be

Understanding that the strenth

was always inside of me..

By Chasity S