together once more

I wonder endlessly
questioning my heart why
when I had no choice but to leave
but know this, I am still yours

I gave and gave 'til there was nothing
left to hold but still I stood still
aching to hold to you but never more
my heart beats in sudden fright

Afraid to hold on to the light
the longing to be there
unless we change our beats
the minutae of our thoughts against
the dark waves of regrets that we swim through
sometimes drowning, we let go

I hold on to the memories of our joy
the blessings of you and I plus two
our little boy
our little girl
How can I ?
When I know the seconds are longer, time seeks and finds
us alone in our seperate worlds
figuring how to do this
seperating heart
learning faith
teaching love in the trenches of tribulations
letting go of the past,learning to be
husband and wife once more
we went off the beaten path
took a hard curve
now the pain
is our rain
it storms our souls
drums us apart
'til we learn to live together once more