The Beast inside of me

  

  I don't like the force of anxiety of pain and depression of me inside of i wish i can ripe out of  me. So, I can be a part of world that i can smile and feel love and not let the grudge of the past keep me from living the life i want to live. I want where noting isn't perfection but, accept me as i am and talked me as i am a person with heart of gold that don't know the feeling of love but, shows a great deal of it to the people and family that in life that she cares' for so much. I want so much of me the fear and the stuff i hold so strongly to go away. I just want to be the quite person I was. I go to therapy to make things right in my life but, feel that it is mistake that happening all over where my emotions get the best of me. I want to control my emotions the right way. Sometimes I just want to give up through it all way. but, you have gave me things to what's write but, i am scared to let go. It a lonely cold feeling that i get inside that sends shivers down my spine.  

by Susan Zelin