My body is exhausted
My soul is tired and weak
There is a million reasons to die
But a million more to live

My heart aches with pain
My mind alive with scattered thoughts
Im ready to give up
life is really just too hard

But how do you say goodbye
to your children and parents
a note is just not enough
but not saying goodbye
is surely not a option

We think they will understand our pain
and know that we will be at peace
But can I be a peace hurting my family
and leaving them with this distress

A scar that will never heal
the questions they will always think
the what if's they will feel guilty about
the cost and planning of the funeral

So in the end...
I will not die tonight
for it seems that the peace I crave
will never come....
because of the damages I leave behind

I must now move forward
pick up my chin and look to god
but this time ask for help
become stronger, healthier, and
most of all stay sober

Am I worth it?
Yes I am.