I was once deprived of love,an outcast in a realm of dillusion,a nomad in a land not of my own, a wanderer which time had forgotten. My thoughts plagued me constantly while the air i breathe was at a stand still. I fought battles within my mind which i now know today was unnecessary. I asked the question over and over, why me? As i looked at my surroundings i saw love, i felt love, i could even embrace love that i saw others share, but as i came back to reality that was only a mirror image of what was truly due to me. A dopple ganger of the opposite universe in which my sub conscious lived on a daily basis. I have always heard that we have an identical twin somewhere in this world and i have come to find that being true. Yet in my case i have been given the opportunity to see mine at a moment notice. As i watch and try to learn from my opposite im restricted with certain limitations. I have  guards and barriers hindering my growth, so i patiently wait. I have come to understand that haste is not always waste,  that in some cases it is a virtue. My reasoning is darkened with gloom, my outcome is always the same, so i wait. Even though i now can mimic how to love, that too fades away.I"m in a world of solitude lonely is the path i follow. There is no two to my one only me. As the sun rises in the morning its abruptly taken, my nights are long  with a never ending toll. I"m adam with no eve,samson searching for his delilah, david lackin bathsheeba............(jue)...