I did it again...let my emotions take over instead of letting my mind speak..letting feelings for you make me weak..being young and dumb to believe in you...thinking that you'd be the one to do me right...when really I was blind in sight...blind in love...thought you were loving me the whole time...when really you were looking and fucking around...had feelings for you that i thought was growing strong...when those feelings were wrong all along...we were together for the first time...when i saw you i just smiled...didnt know how you felt but i thought i knew you were happy...the way you looked at me...that damn look...made me blush and feel too shy...when you smiled i couldnt look because i felt so giggly and butterflies fluttered...the way you stared and i could feel you looking...i could feel your feelings...i could tell how much you wanted me...laying in your arms made me feel wanted and safe...kissing your soft lips while in your embrace...I guess the love we made was false...i guess in your eyes i was only a easy fuck...the time you took, the looks you gave, the kisses you left on my body all linger in my mind...and bother me...i didnt sleep much because every time i closed my eyes there you were...hearing your voice, laugh, smile...the time we did share...you made me smile and i know i made you smile too...you cared when i wasnt happy and seemed to do anything for me...when it was time for me to leave you...you lied to me...speaking the words i'll see you again i promise...looked me in my eyes...and i still feel those kisses...you lied...i was just someone you could use for your pleasure...I can't believe i believed you for one moment...the 4 monthes fucking tented me...that shit right there...i must be fucking crazy...i wasted my time, my money, my heart, my mind on you...you who wasn't shit just pretended to be...had me and she and probably others believing....I can't depend on you nor any other man like i do...UGH I'M DONE..MAYBE I'LL GO GAY!!! LMAO...nah thats not for me i'm just joking....