Just getting ready for the sunshine

it has been raining for as long as i can remeber.
sometimes it hails as it rains the size of gumballs,
but the strength no man could imagine!
As it falls it pierces my skin, destroys my soul,
and murders what little pride i have inside.
Turns my nightmares into reality, and my reality into fear
Fear of life
Fear of me
and the people that want to be their for me.
it just keeps raining
sometimes it rains and its so cold it freezes my heart
And i don't feel anything
I don't feel loved
I don't feel happy
I don't feel anything
becasue im so immune and addicted to pain
from all the rain
Wehn the sun shines while it rains it beats me
It beats my soul
My happiness
My hope, and what little left of me that i have
its been raining for as long as i can remember!
And at one point i use to want it to rain all the time
So i could feel something
because nothing will ever compare to my inner pain
that has no way out
so i run to the rain to cope with my inner pain.
But it doesn't rain anymore it sprinkle
And soon it won't rain again!
because i'm just getting ready for the sunshine
the sun will finally shine on me
And i can be happy
 and look deep inside of me and find the person i use to be
before the rain became apart of me
I habe been told that when God take something away from you
that it isnot punishment,
but so you can recieve something better
And my arms are open wide for what ever God has in store for me
I'm just getting ready for the sunshine

By;me(Sharee Robinson)