Trying is an excuse not to do and excuses are tools of the incompetent and those that use them never amount to anything.  Lee Gilliam II

I Tried

            Yoga, Allah, Buddha, Rasta Farian, Smoking Marijuana and Listening to Nirvana-Steve Wonder I bet he even sees why.

I Tried Alcohol. Biggie Smalls, Harie Christna Hypnotics, Scientology, Anthropology, back to Africa-Pro Black- Pimp, Mack Player- Church Singer, Preacher- Ghetto Teacher if God can't how the hell can I reach ya.

I Tried Vice Lord, Disciple Hustled on four corners. Mason Bricks, Car Jacks and selling dope sacks.  Fornication Adultery all left me falling.  It would seem I’d start doing and quit stalling.

I Tried Egyptian Philosophy, Psychology, Living Naturally, Biofeedback Therapy, Hip Hop carrying glocks I even tried college.

I Tried Young girls-God forbid Jeri curls to locks to selling crack rocks; Abortion, extortion, larceny- Bill Cosby, Ron Parsley and Bob Marley.

I Tried Yo MTV Raps, Rap City from the Mayor to Big Tigger.  Never pulled triggers but carried guns legally.  Noble Drew Ali as well as Chi:  Chinese herbs- Swahili words, Ancient Chinese Secrets.  If you listen you can peep it.  Thought I was aberated so I Tried Dianetics Hooked on Phonics.  Got lonely so I got girls pregnant.

I Tried Clubbing’, Thugging’, drug smuggling’. Married with a baby carriage deep in the Hebrew heritage.  Lying, cheating’, deceiving abandoned son and Wifey because I Tried to be faithful to my girlfriend.

I Tried Carpentry, laying carpet see, plumbing, gardening and cleaning my arteries.  Natural remedies, vegetarian, humanitarian wanted to be a Mormon and a Muslim so I could try polygamous marriages.  Wanted to be a Monk to reach Divine Enlightenment.  Operation P.U.S.H., Nation of Islam, Million Man March cause I wanted to see Black Men United.

I Tried fast cars, jail bars, studying stars:  Venus Mars.   Not the ones that get movie parts. Conscious Rap, colon cleanse to get rid of the crap.  Praying, fasting, asking wearing disguises talking nasty.  The honest truth the deejay booth.  Marcus Garvey, Steve Harvey weight lifting to change my body. 

I Tried sobbing, yelling masturbation to feel love and control lust.  Abstinence indulgence seems there is no evidence.  Disappearing, popularity neither took care of me.  Fame or obscurity: selfishness giving still had no security.  I Tried love-hate single involved loneliness still evolved.

I Tried shopping malls gang brawls to get my adrenaline flowing.

I Tried Ramadan-“Alakim Salaam A.M.E.  Baptist, Astrology, Meditation, Sex Magic being passive, naïve, poetry, knowledge of Self.

I Tried denying my desires recording with my church choir.  Trying is and excuse not to do I fueled being unfaithful see.  Christ till the end never leaves and does the Word of God and is Christian.