I feel helpless, I feel ashame
I know I am the only one to blame
It sucks because I can't even drive my car
I can't play with the kids too long in the yard
I am just not the girl I used to be
I want to go back to when I was me
I don't think anyone can really understand
How much it sucks to have to depend on your man
The one who wants to be independent and pay my own bills
I feel like sometimes I am loosing my will
Sometimes I wonder when I am laying down
Why does he want to stick around?
I know deep down inside I still have to fight
Are they ever going to figure out what is wrong or right?
The doctors say that there is nothing wrong and you are okay
I wish for once they would live my life for just one day
I am tired of going for all of these test
And they still haven't figured out anything yet
There are times I just want to cry
But I refuse to sit around and ask myself why
One more hospital visit and I am done
Because I do not want to go to another one
I am not crazy like these doctors think
And I don't need to see a god damn shrink
I know that I am completely sane
My life is not a freaking game