GUILT

© 2007

Deep in my heart I felt a discriminating anguish

Tormenting me like the heat of a furnace

Shaping me like a potter does his pottery

Enclosed me with shame

and left me pathetic in dismay.

Guilt!

It didn’t have to happen this way

But I was a young, naïve juvenile

Bouncing with arrogance and pride

But when it came, it ruined my immaculate character

Changed my life around and left me in agony.

Guilt!

My heart sank, as I remembered the deeds that I had done

With hands clenched and my head hung in humiliation

Hoping to see the light at the end of the tunnel

But, surprisingly, it hit me and turned my hope into frustrations.

Guilt!

Trying to promote my own importance I stumbled on guilt

Facing me like a reflection in a mirror

Guilt has hit me broadside and I fell into desperation 

Catastrophic guilt prompted me to cry out

and shook me out of complacency.

Guilt!

How can I experience again, those days?

When my character was spotless and ideal,

My strength of mind was flawless and clean,

My heart was pure and gleaming,

My intelligence was filled with decorum,

and my body squeaky clean.

Feelings of insignificance ruined my life.

Shattered the peace that lived within,

Casting a dim look on my life,

But I submitted my guilt to the good and great shepherd of my life

And he initiated peace that permitted me to respond to life.

Now, I stride the uncharted journey and burst out with laughter,

Because I have won!