everything I wanted!

You are everything I ever wanted & nothing that I ever needed. As I look thru your windows an empty room is seen, I won't move back into isolation & consider this love clean. By mercy & grace I've been accepted into a place and my relocation date was yesterday when i cried my last tears, released all my fears and said "I'll be back" knowing I didn't mean it! U were everything I ever wanted, knowing all I ever needed was to believe in me. I won't miss what I can't see.
It is what it is! was what you told me, right around time when you refused to hold me. You were nothing that I ever needed, even I cried & pleaded, you couldn't hear me & now you dare me! let me slowly clarify what I have denied. I am the stain glass window you shattered as opposed to seeing the beauty in the artistic shape, you intrusively invaded my soul & left me raped of all the dreams i had for a love that would've been great. you were everything even with all the nothing you had. Love don't always end so bad. i can't miss what I never had. but I'm glad no longer sad, mad, frustrated feeling bad, wondering what it is i don't have. i know it's you, no need to prolong what we should do. so take everything you came with & leave nothing behind. All i want in this house is a piece of mind! don't run by here to pick up shit else, i am spending time with myself. i am everything I ever wanted, no longer haunted by the ghosts of guilt or your unexplainable bullshit. i accept you for who you are, just not here anymore. I love you always but right now i got glass to clean & you got nothing to help me do that. i can't tell  or show you what to  fix around here, you were never that damn handy anyway. I'll fix it myself or at least try. Let's not make this a long goodbye. Everything I will ever need is in that book on the table, full of proverbs, psalms, and revelations. So I'll sing songs of Solomon and review exodus as you let the door hit you where the good lord split you. I'll do fine, I won't miss what I can't see. express the greatness in your love & leave.