at times i feel like someone has stabbed me in my heart with rage and hate. emotions are running haywire and i have no time to retaliate.

i sit and cry until my head feels
like its been hit with a hammer.
a migraine will appear and i cant
walk.....just stammer.

i hate the fact i feel the way i do and dont know why.
at times i feel like im on cloud nine, then i wonna die.

emotions never come out they just
stay bottled up inside.
i never want people to know my
feelings so behind a smile they hide

if i had a gun id load it with three bullets and play Russian rullet. living without a care in the world and no regrets.

regardless of what i do everyone
puts it as if i can't do anything right.
disregarding my feelings and my
sleep at night.

1 o'clock
2 o'clock
3 o'clock
4.... im still awake wondering what my life has in store.

i use to be happy, before 15
everything was chills. now im at
a stage in my life that's going
down hill.

so instead of stressing everything i act as if i don't care.
no worries not one grey hair.

but something is wrong like
there is more to life than just
going with the flow. BOOM!
i pulled the trigger, i guess
i'll never know.