drinking and smokeing

Woke this morning with nothing in mind.
getting dressed to leave the house and what did i find.
all my friends were hanging around
listening to music enjoying the sound.
not knowing whats next  we passed it around.
drinkIn , smoking throwIn buds on the ground.
i got so high i forgot my name trying to drive home i must be insane.
i think i drove about a hour or so
then the traffic  just came to a slow i wondered why i wasn,t going no where then i felt my pulse there wasn,t one there
i said o god can you help me home . but the last thing i heard was a cell phone.I heard my mom talking she was talking to my dad, and i thought that he would be really really mad.i wanted to tell him i would never drink and drive again.then i heard them call in  the next of kin. i tried to tell my mom don,t cry but she just kept saying why, why lord why.How come no one is listening to me what is this mom what could it be Then i seen deceased on my toe and i know with my family i would be no more.