Dreams

As I lay here scared to fall asleep,
praying that the nightmares don't come,
the dreams starting, now I am in too deep,
I follow the screams, they sound like me,
Where is the blood from, Oh no, I begin to weep,
reality kicks in and I know that at the end it is me,
I wake wonder how I survived,
is this what there is to life.
This is why I don't sleep at night.

Then there is dreams that you wish was life,
I wake up to my babies and am there when they cry,
showing them a mother's love, then the pain like being cut with a knife,
hits your heart and you realize that your about to wake cause this isn't real life,
you begin to cry and wish it didn't have to end,
it's a cut so deep you can't mend.
So as I go to sleep tonight, I wonder is this going to be a nightmare I can't shake,
or a dream that I wish I wouldn't wake,
I really don't know how much more of this I can take.