Deprive*to keep from possessing or enjoying***

Defeat*to conquer***

Undefeated* your definition, what it means to you***

She said she was deprived, but was she deprived as she put it

Deprived of faith

For her religion would not allow her

Deprived of her smile and laughter

A form of happiness which her life could not give to her

Eyes filled with despair

Her face filled with emotion

A voice

Her voice nervous and so hesitant but yet filled with fear as the words are beginning to be spoken

A life deprived of justice and truth

Just enough to make a good man turn evil

And a crazed woman commit suicide

Suffocating at night by the tears she trys to hold back

Holding her pillow tight on sleepless nights

No one there to hold her close and make sure she doesn’t die in her web of lies

Or drown in the ocean of tears she cries beside her bed

But phone calls and text messages to remind her how she screwed up and how she intoxicated peoples’ lives with her presence hurting them severely with every word unfolded from her mouth not knowing that deep inside she’s hurting to

Forgotten, NO

Deprived, Maybe 

A pretty girl left to wonder if she was really meant to be here

Here amongst the people who act like they care but in reality want to shut her down

Shut her out

Take away the happiness that she needs to survive in a lonely world

This lonely world of actors and actresses… just a few of whom are realist

Reality to her is just an excuse for her to live and go on with her life

While she secretly wants to die a slow lonely death

Something that has been a big fear to her for so many years,

Being alone and unaccompanied through life

Again she’s being deprived of a want not necessity but surely a want…

A want that could probably make her life sufficient enough to WANT to live it

Hmh…

It’s for a great reason she would state while her mind is stating something obscurely different

Misunderstood…. MAYBE

Deprived…. NOT SURE

Climbing the stairs of hypocrisy while on each side someone is saying to her… You’ll make it while in the depths of their minds their saying stop trying to be someone you’ll never be

Wishing the deprivation in this unsanctified life of hers was something that she did not want or need like the people who look down on her because of how she talks or how she dresses or people who constantly hate on her because she has something that they want in their life but could never get…

Deprived is what she calls it but I’ll just call it misunderstood….

A misunderstanding of peoples’ hate for her driving her to the point of INSANITY when all she wants is to live her life without the everyday hassle of wondering who hates me today and who’ll love me tomorrow or does he love me for me or will we ever be

Fact is she was NEVER deprived she was just disliked for being what she was portrayed to be…

Fortunately, she caught her sanity before it got out of hand

And realized that life is life and no matter how hard we try we can never change what life is or what life does

We can only try and make sure that it goes the way we want

We are the only people who can write our book and publish it the day we are supposed to die with the help of GOD… 

So if you ask me if I’m deprived that’s the same as asking me if I’m defeated

Which I’m not… To me, hmh… I remain UNDEFEATED and never deprived…

And amazing to me, she’s still trying understand that…. I think she will one day….