Here comes that time of year again
When everything is seen from the view of a pen
It tells what's real and what's just pretend
Am happy it seems, acting skills to commend

On the real, am taking my last breath
For years I've been living a life after death

September 28, 2004, the day of "the living dead'
The day life became confusing, messing up my head

To whom does this concern, what am I talking about?
The death of love, the reality of living without
The one I love, the rain after my drought
The only girl that ever heard these words from my mouth
"I love you," $₤, and there's still no doubt
Letting her in my heart, now it seems she locked me out

I have been locked out of my own heart for years
By the only girl that have seen me real happy, because she cares
But she's also the only girl whom have seen my tears
The only girl who knew me, knew all my fears

I have always tried to prevent getting a heart-break
But now it has been broken, how much does a heart take
Before it gives in and succumbs to an heart-ache
Then one gets scared of love, at least for a hearts sake

I learned loving is risky, but the steps are worth taking
And it might be a mistake but one worth making
So I decided whether or not my heart will be breaking
I would love, but now it leaves my heart aching

Why do I feel I've been locked out of my heart
Because she's still in it, though so far apart
And it seems I can't love again, I can't even start
Even Cupid's method failed, helpless was his dart

What makes it so hard for me is, the way I love her
It was so hard at first for me to even put God above her

And at times I 'slip-up' forgetting who's second or first
And each time I try forgetting her makes things worst

I promise life that if I don't get to be her beau
There's no way I am ever going to be true
I will do evil things, my goods will be a few
I will never be the same, forget how I grew
For without her am nothing, I just wish that she knew
You know yourself, $₤, I'll always love you